I am so nervous and stressed. I have to see my surgeon Dr Durmush this week.
I am sitting at 31kg lost and keep gaining and losing the same Kilo since March.
I am hoping Dr Durmush will be kind with me and not make me cry
I am really starting to understand how my sleeve is working and how I am working with it or against it .
For example I now feel the tightness in my chest, when I am full. I never felt that before, I always thought that feeling in the throat was full but I know now the tightness in the chest is full.
I also know that I expect that tightness to be there for a while and when it disappears or eases I feel I need to eat more so I know I am full instead of relizing I may not be full but I am not hungry
If I drink my water and cups of tea in-between I don’t feel hungry which is good
I am finding I am eating smaller amounts now and getting that full feeling in the chest instead of eating right up to the 1/4c or more
I brought a 6″ subway the other day and I could only eat 4 bites (4 bites seems to be my limit these days) where as previously when first sleeved I could eat half or a bit more.
Still not sure why the weight isn’t coming off I know I am at a set point and I have to break thru that but still it is annoying
I haven’t been to the gym since all the hassle in March and now I am too anxious to go on my own
I have the gym at home and think yep I will do that today and then it doesn’t happen
I was reading a blog yesterday The Daily Diary of a Winning Loser and one of his posts reminded me ….Basically it reminded me that I was told that my body image and self image are intertwined and they shouldn’t be
I find this hard to do (un twine them) and I am not even sure where or how to begin, if any of you know or have any idea please help me
I am feeling a bit prettier as time goes on i will post some pics below
Other than that there isn’t much going on and I will update you after my surgeon appt on Friday (if he hasn’t killed me )