Ok so I have been quiet.
Gaining weight and doing some soul searching.
I have been feeling of late that I am never going to lose this weight.
I mean 130kg is a massive amount to lose.
So I had been thinking a few of my friends, have had a lapband and said they wished they did it earlier.
So yep, I strted thinking I should get one.
I did some research read a lot and prayed heaps.
I decided to put out a fleece, a test, like Gideon in the bible did Judges 6:36-40.
So I prayed to the Lord that if I got X amount of dollars back on my tax I would be banded
If I got even $1 less that then figure I wouldn’t be done…..
I picked a amount higher than what I would normally get back so I would really know it was a real answer to prayer.
Now while waiting for tax to be done I decided I wanted to be banded …. I told my mum and Ross and we were excited
I then started researching more and reading more and chatting with ppl who had it done and I was getting quite nervous and unsettled.
I then started panicking about the op its self and clots and dying and gallstones playing up etc
I was losing sleep over it and I was so uptight
I then decided No I am not going to make a decision I am going to leave it to the fleece and the Lord to lead me
Well today we got a letter we had to ring regarding tax
They told me the figure I would get
It was $484 SHORT
There is my answer ……NO LAP BAND
God doesn’t want me to get one
He feels I can lose weight myself
So with God and WW I am going to lose this weight .;…
I have to lose weight
It is stopping me living and enjoying Ross, the kids , life, the whole bundle
Watch this space as I get back on the wagon and lose this weight….by Christmas I am going to feel good about myself.