Been missing again lately eh
Week before last was a very bad week but last week I started walking
First day I walked 1.2km I always go out way too hard.
The rest of the week were only about a 15min walk but I had doen it so I was roud of myself
I got up at 5:30am so I could meet my sister in the dark and walk
My gorgeous Daughter Lacey would come and babysit her cousins so my sister could walk with me.
The fresh air at that time of morning is lovely.
I just really wished I didn’t hurt so much
I really wish my head would line up with my body…. There is so much mentally I want to do but I physically cant do it and it bothers me so.
Had to buy a new washing machine today the other one was dead.
Trying my hardest to get on the WW train
The walks help but my still over thinks everything.
I have joined (online) a walking group which walk/run what ever so we get fit to be able to cope with our Autistic children.
Monday Jj has an appt to see where she is sitting on the development scale …..she only started walking last week (17 ½ months) is only saying about 5 words and is screaming and temper tantrums all reminders of Brighton in the early days. I am expecting a informal diagnosis of Autism for her too.
So that has me a bit nervous.
I haven’t been for a walk today but I think when Jj wakes I will put her in the pram and venture out.
It will be a big deal as I have panic attacks going out the front door in day light so hopefully I can block out those nasty mental thoughts.