Looks like the tablets Dr gave me last night are working ….I am seeing a light at the end.
I have eaten within my points
Getting a early night again hoping to feel better tomorrow.
So I lost a kilo on Saturday, that brings my total to 3.2kg
I did really good on Friday ( my birthday)
Saturday and Sunday the wheels fell off ….not bad just pizza and garlic bread both nights…….
I am retaining fluid, can hardle put my rings on .
I am very very depressed.
I gave in and went and saw my dr tonight …..he has added a med and tells me I will be ok.
Apparently when the other dr changed my meds it stuffed me up …..and it is all just leaving my system now …hence the breakdown.
I am trying very hard to still each properly but must admit it is very difficult…..I am craving choc.
but it is more I dont have the motivation to do anything….
so there you have it …..I am now going to go to bed and hope I will feel better in the am.
Brighton went to Preschool yesteday and had a awesome time.
No tears no meltdowns there just enjoyed him self.
Me I missed him like crazy …first time in 4 years I have not had to know where is was and what he was doing 24/7 and it was hard.
I was so use to be ON GUARD that my brain didnt know how to switch off.
so I was stressed yesterday.
This morning a few meltdowns and his mark (lining things up ) left round the house
but he acutual came and ask me …..school? how cute
Eating wise …. I have been on track.
Today my mum and I had some mummy and me time ….we hardly ever do this and it was lovely ….I had my first pedicure ever and got my eyebrows down and then we had a coffee…
I loved it …and the lady doing my pedicure said you must come back in 3 weeks so we can finish treatment….yes my heels were bad…..
Mum said Ok WE will be back then …. it was lovely …. it was my birthday present and the best pressie ever.
Tomorrow is OT with B and Sam
Must make sure I am all prepared for that.
Trying to fit in all my water but not having a issue with food…. a few cravings but never giving in ….very soon it will be so easy I wont even have to think about it.
Ok going to get a early night so I will sign off now leave you with a pic of B just as I left him at Preschool
Today has been mixed good and bad
Good ….Today is one week since I started and I am 3 kg lighter….. I really cant believe it ….I have been on and off diets, on and off Ww for 20 years (ouch) and the most I have ever lost including 1st week is 1.8kg so you can see why I am so over joyed.
Bad ..well it has been a stressful day , B (autistic) is starting Preschool tomorrow and I am very nervous.
Besides the fact he is autistic, I have never never left him with anyone except hubby so this is a big step for me …and him.
The success ….well I stuck to my diet …. I didnt binge…. I didnt even have choc.
I have done two social stories today to help B with Preschool.,…considering I have never done one before I am quite happy about it ..
Also done one for the preschool on their timetable for him so that should help.. I rang them today and they have told me they have set up a quiet place for him and done cue cards already for him…..that really touched me .
Ok so still on track …tomorrow will tough ….hopin I am strong enough … oh and that the preschool dont get sick of me phoning lol
So it is the dya before the weigh in and i am wanting to see how well I have done.
Granted it isnt a week only 5 days but Saturday is weigh in day so I will knowing it isn’t a full week.
Today has been a big day for me,
B had to go to a hearing specialist, this was worrying enough for me…B with people he doesnt know who want to play with his ears and then expect him to do what they ask….great like thats going to happen.
he already had 2 charming meltdowns this morning, so i know what is in store.
Add to that the fact that with the depression I have panic attacks just at the thought of going out and then meeting people
Now add to that , that Ross normally goes everywhere with me (casue of panic attacks) and he couldnt today.
Well I did it anyway … I took be … I drove there … I got to the appointment… I spoke to the people ….B didnt have one melt down ..I got home ……AND I DID IT WITH OUT EATING OR BINGING
I really dont think people will understand what a big thing that is for me but I did it.
I actually enjoyed my time with B ….he is such a beautiful boy.
Then to top the day off the girls have been telling me the lady over the back fence had her baby last week.
We have never met so when she was out there I came out of my cave and introduced myself….Explained B was autistic so if there is screaming not worry and then she tells me her and her husband are psycoligists…cool eh
Well I did another day so proud of me
Lacey and Rhys took 3 of the kids to see ….chipmunks… Dim left early as she was scared.
I will be back in the morning with the results
and still doing well
I had a challenge today ….we brought fresh bread roll
Oh they were looking so yummy esp when i thought of butter and vegimite.
But I didnt I had ham, low fat cheese and salad..
That is such a big thing for me
I havent’ really exercised yet i need to start doing that
Big storm rolling around so am hoping it will cool down … I hate the heat.
Dads 65th birthday today …Happy Birthday dad
didnt get to see him today but I know he understands.
think that brings you all up to date.
And it is getting easier…yay
I want to thank those few special people who have continued to encourage me …you know who you are…
We may never have met in the real world but you are so special to me and I thank you
Today was a long day with B and his O/t
This is him when we arrived
and this is him on the way home
Our O/T really worked him today and by the time she had finished he was high as a kite….
I mean super super hyperactive …..so she gave him a swing and a brush and he was out like a light on the way home ..
Eating has been spot on ……I have 32 points left for the day …huge I know but I am treating my self to a Doner Kebab at 12 points
then a pudding and I will be only around 9 points under I think
Very proud of all you who have started your healthy eating lifestyle…..together we can do this…..
If you have a blog let me know so I can follow your journey….
Also if you leave a comment and would rather not be published ….also let me know
lets keep going guys
It was a touch harder today.
I had cravings but I didnt give in ….got a lovely email from M and that helped me thru the day
Was going to get a kebab for dinner but i was great and didnt (yes i know I could have) I just didnt want to really go bad to the cravings and want to know I can do this …so I didnt have it
I had a chicken Parmagana WW one for dinner and a skinny cow icecream and a choc dessert.
still have 9 points left but am not going to force myself to eat.
Yeah i am a bit hungry but it wont kill me
have a O/T therapy for B tomorrow morning so that will be a full day .
Feeling a bit more in control ……even though i didnt treaddy today …might try and get up early and do it …see how that pans out.
Ok so I joined biggest loser for a couple of days but i was really struggling, and struggling to get in the Cal counting mode.
So I went back to WW and I feel happy there.
I have stuck to my points and not struggled to much .
This year is the year I am going to change.
I truly need and want to do this .
Putting the kids to bed then sitting down with a hot choc on skim milk ( I know it is boiling out side ) and a hot choc pudding and skinny cow ice cream
I am going to do this …