I have spoken to one or two people, not many just some special people about why I never really get to my goal….
Why I am so scared to lose the weight…..and I have been scared.
One of the main reasons I never really tried to lose, I mean I lost 30kg and then self sabotage my self and gained it all back.
One of the main reasons is that I am so so scared of the excess skin.
I mean yes I can wear them like my battle scars but I have such low self esteem already that I believe that would make it so much worse, so rather than face it head on and deal with it…I sabotage myself and don’t let myself lose weight.
Yes I could have surgery but from what I knew it cost a bit of money and we are on one income and it is a number of operations, one blog I am going off is Liz’s
Well I just thought I would do some googling and found out I could get a full body lift and watch a short clip on it….it is a 8hr operation and is all done in the one time…..the only scars would be under the bra, on the panty line,in between the thighs at the pubic area…..I CAN DEAL WITH THAT….
It will cost anywhere between $20,000 and $50,000 wow that is a lot but I have some goals
I want to be ready for the op so that means at goal in 2 years….so I will have finished breastfeeding and in time for my 40th birthday
then when bub goes to school or just before I will go to Uni and get my midwifery and work till I have paid it off….
I am quite excited really…..
I think I am going to do this …..
I think it is finally my time.
Now to tell Ross……..YOU WATCH HOW SUPPORTIVE HE IS….